Forgive me readers, for it has been months since my last post.
There are several beginnings of posts in a file on my computer, and something has been preventing me from finishing and going public with them. Perhaps because I am reading about Buddhism for a class, I am working to be curious about my balking, rather than leaping to my favorite conclusion: I am a loser, a disorganized, lazy, undisciplined and unworthy excuse for a human being.
It has not required hours of meditation for me to be enlightened on this particular matter. In a couple of weeks our worship topic at church is “Expectations;” a major part of what has been holding me back is just that. A fear that I’ll post something that disappoints you. So, hold that thought for a moment and read these words from Kassie Temple, a Catholic Worker:
“While it’s important to be as *effective* as we possibly can in doing vital tasks, it’s even more important to be *faithful* to our gifts and the way they can help meet the world’s needs. When effectiveness is our only norm, we will take on smaller and smaller tasks, because they’re the only ones with which we can be effective.” – Kassie Temple
I felt slightly stricken when I read this, realizing how often and in how many places in my life I fall victim to the trap of perfectionism, of undertaking only those tasks where I know I can be successful.
So here’s the post I promised to some of you who’ve asked me to keep writing. It doesn’t begin to cover all the ideas I’ve had, but I’ll let those wait for another day. Today, I will bite off more than I can chew, write for my book even if those words might not be the ones that end up in the final draft, and offer loving energy to everyone I encounter. And before I even check my email, I will post this on my blog, sending loving energy to YOU, dear readers, and thanking you for reminding me to be faithful to my gifts.
Go, now, and do likewise, offering *your* gifts to the world.